Falling in love is the easy part. I've come to realise how true that is. But marriage is a whole different ball game altogether.
There's the home the two of us set up together that has to be maintained. Then we have to adjust to the new environment and learn to live with each other's different living habits, not to mention the friction that inevitably occurs when two people live together in close proximity. We seem to have a knack of getting on each other's nerves at home. Perhaps our differences are magnified by the confines of our living space, to put it mildly. And to top it all off, we've to think about keeping the sparks in our relationship alive. These are mammoth tasks, any of which is enough to put anyone off marriage, I think.
It's not that I'm having second thoughts. I don't regret getting married and setting up a home together with C. In fact, it's great to have a place to call our own. And I love coming home to the man I love. It's just that I sometimes wish this whole process could be more painless or fast forwarded.
I don't doubt that eventually both of us will find or achieve that delicate balance which will allow us to appreciate and enjoy each other's presence in our lives more fully. Neither do I intend to stop working towards getting there. I keep my fingers crossed that C doesn't either.
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As the proverbial saying goes, the course of true love never runs smooth. Though trite, one cannot help but ponder on how it rings true to this very day. With the onslaught of never ending deadlines and demands at work, one can sometimes overlook the fragility of a loving relationship. Love is not without sacrifices. Sounds easy but a daunting task at times. To be joined in union with the ONE is a blessing and must be treasured dearly. I'm sure deep down in his heart, C is wishing for a more fulfilling companionship with you. And working towards it too! =P
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